Affirmations <3
I am creating the life I always dreamed of, and the one I never knew I dreamed of.
I am not scared of failure, only of not trying.
New opportunities come to me every day and I embrace them.
I am the most authentic version of myself.
I listen to and trust my intuition
I treat myself with patience, kindness and softness.
I am not afraid to be alone with my thoughts and look deep within.
I am allowed to be completely happy.
What’s meant for me will find me, so there is no reason to stress or worry.
I don’t chase, I attract.
The unknown future excites me.
I am divinely guided and protected.
I am proud of who I am and am confident in myself.
Other people’s false perceptions of me don’t affect my perceptions of myself.
I stay true to myself.
I am abundantly creative.
My energy is magnetic.
I embrace being seen, heard and understood.
I take time to rest when I need it.
I am stronger than my vices and distractions.
I am strong and capable.
I am CONSISTENT.
I push myself to achieve my goals and desires.
I let go of the things I can’t control.
1:13 a.m.
Why would I NOT believe that everything that’s meant for me is going to find me? Why would I ever put limits on myself or doubt my creator, the most majestic of all? So far, every single thing has somehow worked out for me and I live a very blessed and beautiful life. Things might seem a little dark now, but the light always comes back. I tell myself stories and draw pictures to ease my troubled mind. I believe in myself with all that I am. Everything falls into place, piece by piece. There’s nothing to be scared of. This life is all a test, I’m just here to do right by Allah, myself and others.
time to lock in…
After spending the first month of this year sick and in bed, I’ve had a lot of time to rest, recharge and reconnect with myself. I miss the version of myself that was UNSTOPPABLE and insanely driven and undeterrable. This year, I want to get back to myself in a new way. I’ve grown and learned and healed so much in this past year, Alhamdullilah, and fear doesn’t control me the way that it used to. I’ve realized everything that is holding me back is all in my own head. Where’s the version of me that didn’t care what other people thought? Only God can judge.
Lately I’ve been driving myself crazy with the way that I procrastinate and trying to understand why I do it. It feels easier to distract myself, but the more I do it the more I feel like I’m going to EXPLODE. Today I had enough of my own nonsense. I went to a cafe with my laptop and notebook and got to work. There’s so many things I could do, so many ways to reach my full potential, yet I hold back. I’m trying to figure out why I’m scared of my own success. There’s a little voice in my head telling me I’m not going to be good at it, but when I imagine myself in my greatest, most creative self, I imagine that voice as a little cloud of fog near my head, maybe like a little mosquito in my ear that I need to SQUASH.
I procrastinate because I’m scared to reach my full potential. I’m scared to reach my full potential because it means I’ll have to let go of my past self. I’m scared to let go of my past self because it means I have to start new. I’m scared to start new because I’ve gotten comfortable… things are slow and stagnant right now, but once I get going they’ll begin to move. Once I start running towards my goals I can’t stop until I get to the finish line! My legs and lungs will burn, but I’ll have to keep going. The lazy voice in my head says no, stay here, but I don’t want to be here anymore! My ‘comfortable’ has gotten UNCOMFORTABLE! I need movement, I need momentum, and just like running once I get into the flow it will feel natural.
The negative little voice in my head needs to be drowned out.. it needs to be replaced with positivity. Positive voices, podcasts, peaceful melodies, motivational videos, new information, Quran and Islamic videos. As I’ve been in this coffee shop uploading files to my Photography page, I’ve been watching YouTube videos and taking notes on the key things I needed to hear…
1) CREATE more than CONSUME.
2) Create an ‘I can do it’ list.. things you are proud of to look back on for the bad days.
3) Gratitude journal daily: attract positivity by looking for it in all things.
4) Find the place where your skill matches the challenge in order to have growth.
5) SELF DOUBT is paralyzing, IDEA DOUBT is growth. “I’m not crap, but this version of the idea is. I’ll get there though if I stick with it!”
6) If I want to get to another level, I have to DO THE WORK. EVERY. DAY.
7) Stop making excuses! Stop putting things off! Stop saying “I’ll start when…” JUST START! Circumstances don’t have to be perfect! Changing unrelated things ISN’T going to be what makes me start… I have to just make myself do it! Just sit down, suck it up, romanticize and enjoy the PROCESS, and DO IT. Just mind my own business, keep my head down, say no to what doesn’t align with my goals, and DO IT!
8) Fear is part of success… most of the world is playing it safe. KEEP BEING SCARED AND WORK THROUGH IT UNTIL IT ISN’T SCARY ANYMORE.. eventually it will feel EXCITING! Head into the storm and power through the pain and the anxiety and fear until you get through to the other side.
9) You won’t become motivated until you TAKE ACTION. Motivation only comes once you START.
10) You have to be okay with putting yourself first and not pleasing everyone.. Only YOU will fully understand what you NEED in order to SUCCEED. The only person who can reject you is yourself, by rejecting your own needs.
And finally…
11) Failing to Try is no different than Trying to Fail.
12-22-24
At some point a couple years ago, I felt a certain connection to seeing 12:22 on the clock. Since it’s the middle of the day, it felt like a good time for a check in and to do something good for myself to begin the second half of the day. I decided that every time I saw 12:22 I would try to do something to improve my health. In honor of today being 12-22 and the fact that I cleaned and found a lot of old papers and writing, here is a chart that I made with my friend Melissa while sitting on the beach in Rhode Island.
We thought of the three categories of Mind, Body and Soul and all of the things that could be done to take care of them.
MIND:
Self affirmations
Reading
Talking to new people
Time away from phones/ screens
Writing
Singing
Self Reflection
Routine
Reading articles/ topics
Clean room and clean space
Reflecting on CRIPES every week
BODY:
Exercising to feel good, not just to look good
Less processed foods, more whole foods
Self care and pampering
Stretching
Running/ walking/ everyday movement
Waking up early
Drinking water!!!
Spending time outside
SOUL:
Turn unwelcome thoughts into lessons
Traveling
Do something new every day or every week
Meditation and clearing of the mind
Talking to yourself
Doing the things you love
Eat your favorite foods once a week
Baking (and having dessert)
Cooking new foods
Meals with friends
Laughter
Creativity/ creating
Exploring
First blog post
Hey everyone, I think I’m going to use this as both a portfolio and a blog to best share my personality and style. Lately, I’ve been starting to get a lot more into digital art. I’ve gotten comfortable with the drawing tablet and all the different brushes on photoshop. If you go to my gallery, you can see some of the stuff I’ve been working on. For the blog portion, I’ll share writing, journal entries, poems, and diary type posts. That’s all for now, thanks for reading!